Oh Jesus, Abba Father and Prince of ALL peace,

I am weary. Reading through many of the blog posts this morning has made me realize that I am not alone in that. And although lack of sleep is probably a big factor in my weariness, in our weariness, I believe that it is deeper than that. God, our weariness is physical, but it is also spiritual. We have “done” so much this quarter. We have run so hard and for so long. And I confess that I (and perhaps more of us) have tried to do it largely on my own. I have tried to balance everything in my life and fit it all into what little time I have. Jesus, why doesn’t it balance?! Why do I find myself constantly sighing and thinking that there are not enough hours in the day to accomplish or acheive everything that must be accomplished?

Isaiah 40:28-31

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary, and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

My Lord and my God, I am weary because I do not seek you. We are weary when we do not surrender to you. When we try to accomplish everything by our own strength, we fail. “Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall.” God, how true that is! Teach me to surrender to you, to run desperately back to you, to find hope in you. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence, or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. That is the cry of my weary heart, because only you are capable of those things.

 I am ever reminded of the passage in Ezekiel 36: 24-28 when you declare that you will cleanse us, you will give us new hearts of flesh in place of our hearts of cold and lifeless stone, you will give us your Spirit and the will and the strength to obey. We can’t do any of that ourselves. We can’t “acheive” any of that beautiful work which God orchestrates in us. How wonderful you are Lord that you do not leave us to do it all ourselves! Although we may be weary and weak, you are stronger than we can ever imagine or believe.

Oh My God (by E-Pop)

Oh my God

I’m quiet now

A humble heart

In awe of how

You’ve gifted me

A brand new sense of sight

You saturate

What once was black and white

Oh my God

I am undone

I’ve seen the King

Our God

Oh my God

How can I stand?

By your grace

I comprehend

That you’re the King

That you’re the Great I AM

My shoulders fall

My shaking knees will bend

Oh my God

I am undone

I’ve seen the King

Our God

Amen

 

~Bess